Day 4...

Day 4: A Habit I wish I didn't have.

Hmm...this has taken much thought because I don't have those "normal" habits like biting my nails (ick), twirling my hair, grinding my teeth (ouch), interrupting, etc...

So the habit I could do without would be to not be so hard on myself all the time. It's sad, but true that I am constantly thinking down on myself. It's always: "I need to lose weight," "I should have studied more for that exam," "I should not have lost patience at work," and on and on and on...Now I don't by any means think I am a terrible/ugly/awful person, but when you live in Provo (and just in this world in general) it's hard not to compare yourself to everyone around you.

At our regional Stake Conference in September we had Elder Holland, Sister Beck, & President Packer come speak to us. (Awesome, I know!) But in Sister Beck's talk she said, "You're doing better than you think you are." However, she also tagged it with, "But...there is always more you can do." So I need to remember all that I have done that is good like how I have had many good days at work where patience was not lost and that for being at BYU I have kept my grades up even with having multiple jobs, multiple dance teams, and the hardest experience of my entire life. So instead of being down on myself about those things I need to remember the good and then try to do more, as Sister Beck advises, in other aspects. Like serving others more, better studying my scriptures, giving meaningful prayers, spending time with loved ones, etc...

So all in all the habit I wish I did not have would be: being so hard on myself. I will continue to try harder and harder to stop...:)