Getting back on track.

As any mother knows, having a baby throws your entire life in a huge loopdy loop.

The life that you used to know ceases to exist.

As awful as that sounds, it does get better!

I think the best advice I got was from my sister, Karly.

She told me that it was OK to mourn my old life.

It was OK to miss it.

It was OK to have a hard transition.

So I did that.

I took some time to mourn pre-Kameron life.

And I'm so glad I did...my pre-Kameron life was great!

I really did have an awesome life.

BUT...my life is even better now!

First of all, I have the cutest child that I'm kind of obsessed with.

Second of all, I get to watch a tiny human (who I grew, by the way) discover everything about this world.

I mean, I watched him become enthralled with a Cheez-It box earlier today.  That alone kept him entertained for about 15 minutes.

I get to see him become excited every time he sees me.

I get to see his toothless grin.

I get to watch my husband transform into a father.

I get to be a part of this divine creation process.

And I wouldn't have it any other way.

That being said...I have learned in my 3 months of being a mother that Kameron cannot be my ENTIRE world.

There are other things that make me ME.

And though I love taking care of him, I cannot lose the things that also make me happy.

So I have made a goal to every day do something for myself:

Spiritually

Mentally

Physically

Relationally 

and one thing for my home/family.

Spiritually: watch a General Conference talk, listen to church music, read the scriptures, watch some Mormon messages, etc.

Mentally: read a book for recreation, scrapbook, paint my nails, go to work etc.

Physically: go on a walk, play Just Dance, go to the gym, stretch, etc.

Relationally: spending better quality time with Alex once Kam is in bed.

Home/Family: do the laundry, do the dishes, vacuum, etc.

If I can just do at least ONE of those things in each category every day, I will be in good shape.

I have made these goals so that I am more productive during Kam's nap time and also so when he is awake I will not have any feelings of bitterness for not getting things done.

Wish me luck!

Figuring out how to be a mommy and Kaycie is a tricky mix. :)