Wednesday, January 30, 2013

2013 Resolution

I'm a little behind on making goals for this year.
That's mostly due to the fact that the majority of days that have happened in 2013, I can barely muster up the energy to shower.

As I was trying to think of goals for this year I really could only think of one:

Do the best I can.

That's it.
This year I can't set goals like "run 10 miles every week" or "practice the piano every day" or "read 5 classic novels."
My body is growing a baby.
A little human is growing inside of me.
When other people were pregnant it didn't really hit me so hard.
But man...that is crazy!!
My body is growing and nourishing another body.
As cool as that's also exhausting and making me ill.
I am not one of those blessed women that never gets sick during pregnancy.
Ohhhh, how I wish I were.
There have been times when I think I'm starting to get out of this funk and then I throw up 5 times in one day.  That's a dream.
However, the last few days I really have started to feel a little bit better.
Not back to my normal self...but at least not feeling like I just want to keep banging myself in the head with a sauce pan because that would feel better than what is going on in my belly.
I'm 14 weeks tomorrow (Jan 31st) which means I am a third done!
I'm so praying my 2nd trimester brings good things.
I really do want to enjoy being pregnant.

Well, that was a long tangent on getting to my point of just doing the best that I can.
There are some days when really, truly all I can do is plop myself on the couch.
There are some days when I can go run 1 or 2 errands and fold the laundry.
There are some days when it's a mixture of those two depending on the hour.
I just need to do the best that I can for my body.
It is carrying something so precious.
So if that means one day I can go for a walk and the next day I pretend I'm going for a walk...that's ok.
It's been hard to let my body do what it needs to do.
I've always been someone on the go.
Always working, always dancing, always running around, etc.
I've had a little bit of an identity crisis.
I suppose it's a good thing I've had so much time to think and ponder so that I could figure out in my mind how I need to take care of my body.

2013 is going to bring a TON of changes to our little family.
So with all of it coming at me, I just need to do the best that I can.


Anonymous said...

Just keep swimming :)