Day 5 & 6

Yes I know....I tend to do multiple days in one post, but it just gets hard to remember every day. However, Day 5 is a place I have been and Day 6 is my favorite superhero and why.

I really haven't been THAT many places...I've never been outside of the country and compared to a lot of people haven't even seen that much that the USA has to offer. However, I am proud of my recent excursion to San Francisco, CA. I was only there for 12 hours for the Braves game, but I loved it for those 12 hours! I want to go back so badly! I want to experience everything, since all I got to enjoy was the bridge and AT&T Park.

Mr. Incredible is my favorite superhero. Rather...the whole Incredibles clan are my favs. How could they not be? They have cool powers, they're friends with Frozone, they pass on their powers through their genes, and Edna is their stylist. Need I say more?!

Day 4...

Day 4: A Habit I wish I didn't have.

Hmm...this has taken much thought because I don't have those "normal" habits like biting my nails (ick), twirling my hair, grinding my teeth (ouch), interrupting, etc...

So the habit I could do without would be to not be so hard on myself all the time. It's sad, but true that I am constantly thinking down on myself. It's always: "I need to lose weight," "I should have studied more for that exam," "I should not have lost patience at work," and on and on and on...Now I don't by any means think I am a terrible/ugly/awful person, but when you live in Provo (and just in this world in general) it's hard not to compare yourself to everyone around you.

At our regional Stake Conference in September we had Elder Holland, Sister Beck, & President Packer come speak to us. (Awesome, I know!) But in Sister Beck's talk she said, "You're doing better than you think you are." However, she also tagged it with, "But...there is always more you can do." So I need to remember all that I have done that is good like how I have had many good days at work where patience was not lost and that for being at BYU I have kept my grades up even with having multiple jobs, multiple dance teams, and the hardest experience of my entire life. So instead of being down on myself about those things I need to remember the good and then try to do more, as Sister Beck advises, in other aspects. Like serving others more, better studying my scriptures, giving meaningful prayers, spending time with loved ones, etc...

So all in all the habit I wish I did not have would be: being so hard on myself. I will continue to try harder and harder to stop...:)

Day 2 & 3...

Day 2: Meaning behind my blog name.

Well...there's not much to it. My name is Kaycie Quilhot Maurer and my blog title says Kaycie Q. You can do the math. And the little line underneath it is the title of my favorite poem. (Go look it up! It's awesome!)

Day 3: Picture of me and my friends. I had such a hard time because I have LOTS of pictures with friends. So these were the first 2 I thought of that have more than one friend in them. Sorry if you're not in one of them...I promise I love you and you're still my amigo!

30 Day Challenge...and Day 1 of that challenge!

I totally stole this from my friend, Kjell, but for some reason I loved the idea so I think I shall join her in this 30 Day Challenge! Here's how it goes:

Each day of the month, write a blog post according to these guidelines below:

Day 1-Recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 2-The meaning behind your Blog name

Day 3-A picture of you and your friends

Day 4-A habit that you wish you didn't have

Day 5-A picture of somewhere you've been to

Day 6-Favorite super hero and why

Day 7-A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 8-Short term goals for this month and when you'll accomplish them

Day 9-Something you're proud of in the past few days

Day 10-Songs you listen to when you're bored, happy, sad, mad, hyped

Day 11-Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12-How you found out about blogger and why you have one

Day 13-A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14-'A picture of you and your family

Day 15-Put your ipod or shuffle on-first 10 songs that play

Day 16-Another picture of yourself

Day 17-Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18-Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19-Nicknames you have and why you have them

Day 20-Someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future

Day 21-A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22-What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23-Something you crave for a lot

Day 24-A letter to your parents

Day 25-What I would find in your bag

Day 26-What do you think about your friends

Day 27-Why you are doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28-A picture of you from last year and now-how have you changed?

Day 29-In this past month, what have you learned?

Day 30-Your favorite song

A Recent Picture & 15 Random

Facts About Me!

1) My favorite animal is a dolphin. Growing up on boats with the fam bam, I saw dolphins a lot! I never get sick of them! They're incredible to me!

2) I'm not OCD about much, but when I do have OCD tendencies, this is what happens. I check my alarm at least 5 times before I can fall asleep.

3) From time to time I still get stuck in my teeny-bopper days. Like today for instance, I sat on YouTube for far too long today because I kept looking up old Nsync and Britney Spears music videos. (I'm talking Tearin' Up My Heart & Oops...I Did It Again! old)

4) I named my 4Runner after my favorite dancer on SYTYCD, Neil. And when I met him after the show, I told him. That's right...I did.

5) I want a clone of Justin Bieber for a child. That would make my life.

6) I was Valedictorian of my high school graduating class. It was only 52 people graduating, but hey...that's 51 that I had better grades than.

7) I was an extra in "The Legend of Bagger Vance" when I was 13 and I met Matt Damon on the set. My mother rummaged his Diet Coke can out of the trash can and yes...I still proudly display it on my shelf.

8) Hot dogs, chips and salsa, pb&j sandwiches, chicken, and watermelon are my top 5 favorite foods.

9) I am obsessed with the Atlanta Braves!

10) When I was little I would blackmail my sisters to play Barbies with me. As the baby of the food chain you have to learn tactics very young.

11) One Halloween I was Pocahontas (age 9 perhaps), but on Halloween I got super sick and since I had to go to the bathroom all the time my father ever so fondly called me "Poo-poohontas." I cried.

12) I know the Greek alphabet (in order).

13) I have a scar on my knee from when I ran into a stage light box in my parent's room...naked...with my dad (unbeknownst to me) in their bathroom...i wanted to die when he came out to see what happened...i went in the bathroom and cried that he saw all my 14 year old parts.

14) I listen to Christmas music in July.

15) I want to invent something that will be a hit for like 3 years and make me millions.

Dear Alex,

This post is for you.

I know that a few weeks ago I put you through a lot of pain when I told you that I was scared, confused, and knew you were more in love with me than I was with you.

I've never wanted to cry at someone's face more than that night.

You are so very much in love with me and I had punched your heart.

Your face said everything you were feeling inside and I felt like the most awful person in the world.

I know what it's like to feel heart ache.

I know what it's like to be in the more loving end.

I know what it's like to feel completely out of control of a situation you wish you could so badly control.

Since I know what that is like I never wanted to be the source of that pain...and I was.

I'm sorry for that.

That being said, however, I have never been more proud of you.

You took everything I said with love and care and then had a decision to make.

You decided not to be selfish, but to be selfless.

And it has made all the difference in the world.

That night I told you I was scared that I would pick the wrong guy...again, and that is something I do not want to go through for a second time.

(once was definitely enough.)

That night I told you I was confused because some days I wanted to be with you and others...not so much.

That night I told you it was hard having you around all the time now since I was so used to being able to just do my own thing and text you with the 4 hour distance between us...now you're just 5 blocks away.

Let's face it, I told you a lot of things that night that I'm sure you would rather not remember since it hurt you so much.

I asked for space. I asked for patience. I asked for respect. I asked for time. I asked for prayers.

You could have just walked away that night and thought I was horrible for asking such things and not done anything about it.

But you didn't.

You did the complete opposite.

You gave me all the space I needed, you've been patient with me and given me time, and you have constantly been praying for my nerves to calm down.

You've been everything I could've dreamed of, but were not sure if you were capable of it.

But in this last month I feel like I've seen you in a different light.

You've been working hard and learning what it means to have a job.

You've been reading your scriptures, giving talks in church, and doing your home teaching.

You took care of me when I felt like death had come upon me and revived me back to health.

You've been patient and kind and ever so loving.

I know that no other girl ever crosses your mind because you're too busy staring at me. (both figuratively and literally. :)

I'm really proud of you and the growth you have shown over the last few weeks.

It has made all the difference.

I think you're just great and I love spending time with you.

Speaking of, where are you? I want you to be sitting next to me right now.

I really do love you with all my heart.

I had forgotten for awhile, but now it is back and it is stronger than ever.

Thank you for being you and for being what I need.

You're such a good guy. Everyone knows it. Everyone loves you: friends, roommates, co-workers, etc.

But most importantly for you...I love you too.

Braves Girl

Braves Fans invading San Francisco!

So...as we all know the Braves went to the playoffs.

Oh my gracious how excited was I?! SO exciting! We have not made it to the playoffs since 2005! And what's even better is that it is Bobby Cox's last year as the manager and what better way to go out than go to the postseason?

Well, when we found out they were going to be playing their first 2 games in San Francisco my friends and I started scheming on how we could go. We searched for awhile (well, more like my dear friends searched) and we finally found 5 tickets on Craigslist. They ended up being $85 a person...not too bad. So we headed to San Francisco! We left Thurs night at 11:30pm and got into San Fran area around 9:30am. We ate breakfast and power napped at Ashley's aunt's house and then headed to the city because we wanted to go see the Golden Gate Bridge before the game. Twas SO cool! I seriously loved the bridge!

Outside AT&T Park

It was also awesome walking around all decked out in Braves gear! The looks on people's faces and the comments were pretty funny. We got to the park about 2 and a half hours early. AT&T Park is way cool! It is right on the bay and the stadium is just cool. We got there a little bit before batting practice. Ashley and I yelled at one of our fav pitchers (Jair Jurrgens) and told him we loved him and he waved at us. We kinda freaked. Then Derek Lowe (one of our starting pitchers) heard us Braves fans freaking out when they came out for BP and so he showed us the love by doing the sign for "I Love You." We were stoked on life...again. Then Ash and I ventured down by the outfield to say hi to the pitchers out there catching the fly balls. Jonny Venters (a closer) threw us each a ball! And once again...loving life. And the game hadn't even started!

San Fran Trolley

Then the game started. And wow. Giants fans are T.E.R.R.I.B.L.E. The most classLESS fans I have ever seen! Middle fingers directed at us, F You's at us, and the most vulgar signs and desecration of the tomahawk chop. Thankfully we had the 5 of us and 2 other Atlanta fans found us, so we stuck together, but if you saw little 1-3 souls in Braves gear they got popcorn and beer thrown at them. People would Boo in our ears. (right ear is still ringing.) Just seriously I can't even describe how awful it was. Especially since we were losing for the first 7 innings. It was slightly miserable. Then all of the sudden our boys really stepped it up and started playing baseball. We tied it up and it went into extra innings! Our closing pitcher got hurt so they had to pull in a pitcher who has sucked all season and somehow he pulled it out so no runs were scored for the Giants. And in the 11th inning our center-fielder, Rick Ankiel, bombed one out of the park and into the bay! Booyah! It was the greatest moment ever! It was literally the best game I have ever been to! It was so exciting, nerve-wracking, intense, glorious, and purely amazing. I loved seeing my boys play and was so proud of be a Braves fan.

Right after we won!

Let's just say Giants fans were pretty much silent as the game ended. You could hear us from any where in the stadium, I'm sure. We were definitely not quiet. We were so excited! It's one of those epic games that everyone wishes they could have been at and well....we were. Definitely a once in a lifetime opportunity. We were still getting cursed out and harassed as we were leaving, but oh well. I know that at Turner Field they would have been treated differently because our mamas raised us right in the South. You don't treat people like that. Ever. We were all on a high for quite sometime after the game. We headed back to Provo right after and arrived back around 12:30pm on Sat afternoon. Call us crazy. Call us insane. But we like to call it hardcore and awesome! The best road trip of my life.

On a more somber note...the Braves lost both of the games at home. Mostly due to bad calls and our bench 2nd baseman's awful errors, since Martin Prado got hurt right before the playoffs. Yes, I'm so sad. I really wanted to go all the way. But at the same time we had so many bench players out there starting. We lost Chipper. We lost Prado. We lost Jurrgens. We lost Medlen. We lost a lot of those key players that make a huge difference on the field! So for us to still make it to the playoffs and then do as well as we did, I'm proud. We gave a good fight. Every game was only within 1 run.

Another somber note is that this was Bobby's last season. Bobby is the man. I've never known any other manager. I love seeing him waddle/jog on out to the pitcher's mound. I love seeing him sitting there giving calls. I love seeing him get all heated. He will defend his players to the death, which is why everyone wants to play for him. He loves his players more than anything and they are number one to him. He has more managerial ejections than any other manager in history! I am proud of that. That means he fought for his players. He actually got ejected at the game we were at. So we were able to witness his last ejection and his last win. I feel pretty dang lucky.

Unlike Giants fans, Bobby Cox has class. I respect him and I love him. Bye Bobby. You will be sorely missed!

I want the Rays to go all the way now. I hate the Yankees. I hate the Phillies. And I hate the Giants. GO RAYS!

And now I will leave you with this video I took during the summer while at Turner Field. Until next season Braves. I love you! Good season.

today...

...was one of the hardest days I've ever had.

I was at New Haven today from 8am-9:45pm. I was heartbroken I had to miss Conference!

But, I had to go on a little mini-retreat with some of the girls. We got back from that around 5 and came home to chaos in the house.

One of our girls is having a SUPER hard time the last week.

Her name starts with a "K" so that's what I'll call her.

K is barely 14, has Asbergers, and is very into self-harm. i.e. cutting.

She's always been quiet since I've started, but has her moments where she freaks out and has to get put in a hold.

Normally her bad spells last anywhere between a day-2 hours.

However, this bad spell is b.a.d. and she will not snap out of it.

It started on Tues morning. She's been put in who knows how many holds, at least 6 every day. She's threatened to kill herself so that puts her on suicide watch. She grabbed bleach from a girl when she was doing her laundry and tried to drink it...thankfully staff is so close by she didn't. Yesterday she grabbed a knife from the cook while she was prepping food and put it to her stomach...again a staff nearby. She's bit THREE staff members and today she broke the skin on all of them and they had to go get shots at the doctor's office. Like seriously...K has gone crazy. The scary part is, is that she laughs about it in a weird way. You ever seen Heath Ledger in The Dark Knight? Not quite as creepy...but close.

I've never seen her like this and it's the scariest thing. She is now stuck in a room with 2 staff members with everything stripped from the room.

If she doesn't get better in the next few days I bet she'll be relocated because New Haven does not accept violent girls and we do not have the resources to deal with this much of suicide behavior.

Yes, I'm worried about K cause I do care about her. I'm not super close with her, but I've still worked with her and we've had some talks and I do care for her well being and am sad she's acting the way she is.

BUT, the hardest part of my day was seeing the other 15 girls in the house.

They are all having a super hard time with it.

Some of them feel betrayed. Some of them feel hurt. Some of them feel neglected since staff is always having to worry about K. Some of them feel angry that K is physically hurting staff. Some of them feel unsafe.

When I was gone most of the day on the retreat K had a pretty bad freakout so when I came back the house was very down trodden. Multiple girls coming up to me and melting in my arms and saying they can't handle it. Most of these girls are so sensitive or trigger very easily to stressful situations. Our house is a community and this has totally disrupted the "family."

So I spent the night talking individually with some of the girls and letting them express their feelings. All of these girls are in the recovery process and it is so hard for them to focus on why they're here when things in the house are so crazy. I love these girls so much. I seriously feel like they're my little sisters. Do they drive me up the wall sometimes? Oooohh yes...but wow. I feel such immense love for them! They're my babies.

When my supervisor came up to me to see how I was doing I kinda broke down. This week has been so draining, especially today. I do not like seeing my girls hurting. Well, some of them hurt all the time as it is because that's what they're working on, but I hate to see them hurt more than what they need to be. I do love that the girls are so defensive of the staff and get upset the K is hurting us. So to help them we took them out to get ColdStone to let them get out of the house, dance in the car, have some fun, and try to stop thinking about everything for a bit.

I know this post is kinda depressing, but I just have so much energy pent up inside I had to write it out...

I hurt for K. I really do. I wish I understood what she was going through.

But mostly I hurt for the girls that are left with her aftermath. They have so much strength, they don't even know. That's where I come in. I help them realize that inner strength. I love my job! I really do.

Tomorrow my supervisor asked me to come in from 3-5 to help out with K watch. I'm going to wear long sleeves, long pants, and possibly some football pads...:)

New Haven? Yes, please!

Hello Peeps! Sorry I've been kinda out of the blog world for a few weeks. Life has been CRAZY! And that's an understatement! I've had so much going on with moving to a new house, working an average of 57 hrs a week, starting school, meeting with advisors, getting everything set for graduation, and so on! However, it has been awesome. Busy and I wanna pull my hair out sometimes, but nonetheless awesome! I have done some fun stuff because if not I would pull my hair out! And some of those fun things would include meeting and getting to know my amazing new roommates, seeing John Mayer live [words cannot express], and having the boy move to Provo! Happy days. However, the point of this blog is to talk about my internship. For my major we have to do a senior capstone and I chose to do an academic internship for the semester.

The place is called New Haven. They have hired me for as long as I can work there. Even though I am getting credit for it, I am an employee and get treated as such. New Haven is a treatment center for at-risk teenage girls. It is located in Spanish Fork and it is such a great place! Crazy sometimes? Yes. BUT...it's such an awesome job. New Haven has 3 houses on the campus with about 16 girls per house. I work in the Teresa House so I work with the same girls all the time. All of the houses are named after strong, influential women. (Mother Teresa, Sacajawea, & Eleanor Roosevelt) I work on Tues, Thurs, & Sat from 3-11pm. While on shift you are responsible for the emotional, physical, and mental well-being of the girls. The supervisor will put you over a certain level. You're there with all of the girls, but you're only really responsible for making sure you know where your level girls are. (There are 5 levels and our house has a variety of levels right now.) Since I'm there in the afternoon and evening, I get there when they're done with school and such so we have fun rec activities, service, recreational therapy with the therapist, values activities, pizza & a movie, work out hour, homework hour, etc. Whatever needs to be done that night. I have a lot of fun with the girls (well, most of them) and it sometimes doesn't even feel like a job...more just hanging out with teenagers.

Now, you may be asking how these girls get themselves in there? Most of what these girls have issues with all stems from depression, anxiety, or no self worth and they've pretty much all had a traumatic experience. Those things manifest itself in a variety of ways: eating disorders (over and under eating), self harm (cutting), drug and alcohol abuse, manipulating relationships, OCD, etc. Some of the girls wanted to come, some of them did not, some of them made a deal with their parents, and so on. We have girls that are happy and girls that are angry or sad. They are fighting a battle within their minds constantly every day. I can understand only so much. I can know what they are going through, but I will never know what it's like to have their lives, which I am grateful. It is so rough for them sometimes. Some of the girls will still blow up at times, which is not fun! We had to put a girl in a hold the other day because she was gettin a little crazy. That was not fun. I wanted to cry, she was screaming so loud. But most of the time it's not quite that crazy. Most of the time things are pretty chill. I do get cursed off by one girl every time, at least once, but she's like that with everyone so I don't feel so bad.

New Haven is seriously such an amazing program! Everything about the treatment is so perfectly planned. Usually girls have been to 2-3 treatment centers previous to coming and when they leave, New Haven has an amazing rate of girls not having to go to another treatment center. New Haven is very family oriented and will not take a girl unless the family is willing to move along in the program with her daughter. They have to agree to family therapy through conference calls or skype and have to make the changes necessary at home. I can't even explain everything about the program because I'm still learning stuff and I've been there for 3 weeks. But here is their website. Go...it's awesome.

In short...I LOVE my internship/job! Those girls have already stolen my heart. Some are easier to love than others, but I love them all and know that they all deserve to live life the way it was meant to be lived...in happiness. I can't tell you how much my eyes well up when they get so excited I'm there or when they give me hugs or when they just want to cuddle and have me stroke their hair or when I'm saying goodnight and they tell me they love me. No greater feeling. I'm doing something of worth and it fills me with joy.

New Haven or bust!! :)

she glows.

So...I have this boyfriend.

And this boyfriend and I have a private online journal since we live so far apart.

We can share pictures, videos, funny things, whatever...with each other.

It helps us feel closer than the 4 hours that separate us physically.

I made it for us for Valentine's Day and for the last 6 months has proven to be quite the fun thing.

(no, you may not know the site. :)

Alex left the cutest post the other day.

But it also got me thinking about a lot of things.

For about 30 seconds I had a ton of thoughts swimming through my brain that came after reading his latest post.

It basically was about glowing when you're happy.

He watched the movie "Stardust," which is about a poor shopkeeper that is a prince, but he doesn't know he's a prince. He falls in love with a girl and to prove his love to her he says he will catch the shooting star they just saw fall through the sky. The shooting star happens to be this amazing girl and long story short...the two of them end up falling in love.

The part Alex liked was that whenever the star and the prince were together (walking together, talk together, dance together, etc.) the star gives away her true emotion...happiness. And since she's a star, she glows when she's at her happiest.

Then Alex said, "How cool would it be if girls really did glow when they were around the boy they liked?" Haha...I'm sure cool for the boy, not so cool for the girl.

Then he tied the movie into the gospel:

"So the boy, who really is a prince, becomes a king. But a king can't live forever...unless he has the heart of a star. Well, since she falls in love with him, she gives her whole heart to him, and they live together happily ever after...forever."

I love that. I love when we can find doctrine within the world.

It is another testimony of just how true the gospel is.

As I was thinking about that, I was thinking about the times in my life when people say that i'm "glowing." Obviously I'm not literally illuminating, but people for sure give off a "glow."

Those times would include: right after I get home from things such as EFY, Youth Conference, & Girl's Camp. When I fall in love. When I get a good grade. When I am home on the island.

And most importantly...those times when I am reassured of my Savior's love for me.

I bet He glows. I bet He glows when we recognize His love and reciprocate that love.

We all have the Light of Christ within us and that Light shines when we are at our happiest.

I hope I can glow all the time and not get so bogged down with everything I have going on.

I love my boyfriend.

I love that he posted that.

I'm grateful for him wanting us to glow because we're in love.

And I'm grateful for his insights.

They gave me lots to think about.

And now I shall close with my bestie, Leah's, quote.

"I wish I were a glow worm, a glow worm's never glum. For how can you be grumpy when the sun shines out your bum?"

Shine On!

eternal love.

Let's rewind. Say, 5 years.

September something, 2005.
I was a Freshman at BYU and my Freshman ward had their opening social.
I was in a wheelchair due to an unfortunate event which resulted in me tumbling down a mountain and breaking my foot. [Don't go hiking at night in flip flops. Been there, done that...not a good idea.]
Anyways, much to my dismay I had to meet my Freshman ward in a boot and wheelchair/crutches...whichever I was feeling. Don't you worry...my friends and I made MUCH use of those toys.Anyways...back to the social. That was the first time I met the majority of my ward (that I grew to love with all my heart) and my Bishopric.
Bishop Hatch.
Brother Mott.
Brother Shepherd.
What incredible men!
Brittany and I instantly connected with Brother Shepherd, but I still remember Bishop Hatch coming up to me and shaking my hand and asking about my foot.
From there on I had the best Freshman year.
Our ward was awesome! We had THE best activities every month and everyone became so tight. Some of my most fond memories from my time here at BYU were during that year.

I saw Bishop Hatch from time to time after Freshman year ended.
He and his wife, AnneMarie, would come into Magleby's every so often, so we would chat.
Or I would see him walking across campus. (He was a Professor in the English Department.)
I always loved seeing him and his wife together though.
They had so much love for each other.
Every testimony meeting when he was my Bishop, he always said how he was grateful for AnneMarie and that he loved her.

It had been awhile since the last time I'd seen Bishop Hatch, but in the beginning of May, I picked up the BYU newspaper and read something I did not expect.
Bishop had passed away unexpectedly on May 1, 2010.
I did not believe it at first.
I thought, "There must be another Gary Hatch."
But as I kept on reading, it was him.
I started crying right there in the middle of the Wilk.
How could this happen?
What about his family?
I didn't know what to think anymore.

Shortly after that I was at the new Magleby's in Lindon when the wives of my Freshman Bishopric walked in, including AnneMarie Hatch.
I got super nervous.
I knew who they were, but I did not expect them to know me...it had been over 4 years since the last time I'd seen all of them.
As they came up to order I was thinking, "Do I say hi? Do I say who I am? Do I ask if she's alright?"
As they all ordered I just acted normal, but once the last one went through I told her who I was and that I didn't know what to say earlier because of the passing of Bishop Hatch.
She got SO excited and was SO glad I had said something.
She said that today was Bishop's wedding anniversary, so that's why they were with AnneMarie.
I about crumbled up in a ball of tears right there.
She said I HAD to go say hi to AnneMarie.
So towards the end of their meal I went up to their table and said hi.
She was so sweet and gracious.
She was grateful to hear that her husband had made a difference in my life.
As I walked back behind the counter I just started thinking about what a mess I would be if such a thing happened in my life.
How do you get up in the morning?
How do you keep on living?
How do you get through the day?

Just tonight, 2 months later, AnneMarie came back into work. This time with her circle of friends from THEIR Freshman year at BYU. SO FUN! They were all so funny and you could tell were so happy to be around each other.
AnneMarie was very sweet, said hi, and remembered my name. She looked better than last time I saw her. She still had her wedding ring on. (I would've too if I were her.)
They sat at the big, round table and were there for three hours!
They were having a grand time!
I hope someday I can do that same thing with my dear friends from college.
AnneMarie came up and asked if I would take a picture of them, which of course I did.
They left shortly after that, but not without another smile from her as she looked back to say thank you.
Gosh...I was such a sap.
My eyes welled up with tears as soon as they walked out the doors.
How does she do it?
How is she still able to get up, do her hair, put on makeup, get dressed, and get out there every day?
But then for the rest of my shift tonight I thought about how she does it.
Knowledge.
That's how she does it.
She knows that Bishop is on the other side waiting for her.
She knows that they are still married.
She knows that they will live together forever.
She believes in her temple covenants.
She believes in the concept of eternal love.
She loves him more today than she did yesterday, and he does too.

I was so grateful for the time I had to reflect on the temple and eternal marriage.
I am seriously SO grateful for the gospel and the peace it brings to our lives.
I am grateful for endless love and I am so excited to have that as my own one day.
I am grateful for parents who have an eternal marriage, who keep their temple covenants, and raised us girls to know they love each other no matter what...for eternity.
Bishop Hatch, Thank you.
Thank you for being an example in my life and in the lives of all you touched while being a Bishop of the BYU 14th Ward.
Your wife is alright. She's as beautiful as always.
We all miss you and love you.