Day 22 & 23...

Day 22-What makes you different from everyone else:

Gosh, I don't know. I can stick my fist in my mouth. Does that count? Somehow I feel like it doesn't. I get this one a lot from people: I am genuine. I genuinely care about others. My supervisor at New Haven as well as my administrator for EFY both have told me they love having me because I am genuine in everything I do. I work with the youth because I honestly care about their wellbeing and want to give them awesome experiences. And that is true. Trust me, working at New Haven is not a walk in the park all the time. (Like Sat night when a girl was breaking everything she could see...including the school's laptop.) However, the glimpses you see of improvement or the hugs they give when going off to bed make it all totally worth it. I love those girls with everything I am. EFY is a little easier since most of the youth there are more stable. It does get hard from the lack of sleep and other obstacles that come, but I do want those youth to have the time of their lives and know their Savior loves them. I don't know how different that is from others, but...

Day 23-Something you crave for a lot

If you had asked me this question freshman year I would have replied: chocolate milk! For sure! My friend, Beth, and I were obsessed! I'm pretty sure I had BYU Creamery Chocolate Milk twice a day all Freshman year...hence the Freshman 12, which I'm still paying for...HA.

However, nowadays I have realized something about myself. I don't really have food cravings unless someone puts the idea in my head. The thing I crave is love. I always want to be feeling cared about, wondered about, and that I'm important to those around me. It's not that I'm insecure in who I am. Cause I am. I love being me...most days. I think it goes back to me being the baby of the family. That spot sets you up very nicely to being the source of much love. That's the way it's always been my whole life. I was the recipient of a lot of love. Which does awesome things for a person's life. I've seen a lack of love shown to some of the girls at New Haven and they do not do well with it. So I definitely am grateful for it. I just do honestly crave love though. I want hugs. I want notes. I want texts. I want kind words. I want time with people I love. However, I love turning that love right back around and giving it back. I want to give hugs. I want to write notes. I want to send texts. I want to say kind words and give my time to those I love. I can always feel the lack of love in my life when things get crazy. I do not like it. Something I am most grateful for is the love I feel from my Heavenly Father and Savior. I don't always receive the love like I should, but they're always extending it and I just need to accept.

Happiness and Sara Bareilles!

This day is supposed to be a picture of something that makes me happy!

And I have chosen to present you with this pic:

SARA BAREILLES CONCERT!! Look on her...ON the piano! Seriously?!

My roommates and some friends ventured up to The Venue in SLC to go see this INCREDIBLE lady tear it up! I mean really?! She played the piano the majority of the time while singing, but she also played the guitar for a few songs, and then as you can see above even got on the piano...which was blue by the way. I am now determined to have a blue piano in my house someday! It was sick. Sara is one of the BEST performers I have ever seen. She is amazing at getting the audience engaged and yearning for more! Not to mention she is freakin' hilarious! Afterwards Ash and I were like, "I wanna be her friend!" All of her songs are so thought provoking and emotion ripping. I definitely got teary-eyed. Oh my gosh I love her! I want to see her any chance I can now get! I respected her more before, but wow...even more so now!

I know I'm totally gonna butcher this, but I think these are the songs she performed (in a slight semblance of order):

Vegas

Uncharted

Gonna Get Over You

Hold My Heart

Machine Gun

Love Song

Basket Case

King of Anything

Bottle It Up

Let the Rain

Fairytale

Gravity

Kaleidoscope Heart

Many the Mile

Every version was more incredible than the track! Things were different and her vocals were amazing! She was seriously flawless! If you can't tell....Sara has changed me. She's so inspiring. I think my favorite part of her inspiration was when she was talking about why she titled this latest album Kaleidoscope Heart. She was saying how all of us are like a Kaleidoscope. A Kaleidoscope is a bunch of broken glass, but then when you look through it you see brilliance and light even through all of those shattered and torn bits and pieces. Hello, inspiring! And I will say I was kind of a mess when she did Gravity. I listened to that song every day for months when I was going through my whole Dan thing. I wanted to give him up so bad, but somehow he had a hold on me and would drag me down. So that song really tugs at my heart. It brings back a lot of feelings...not necessarily bad, but just feelings of hurt and being broken. She was fantastic! Go see her if you have a chance!

Nickynames and such.

Day 19-Nicknames you have and why you have them

I LOVE nicknames! I think they're so endearing and make life fun! But, Wow, where do I begin?! I have been donned many nicknames over the years. It seems that every person close to me has picked something to call me.

Daddy: "Squirt" Yeah, not sure where that one came from. Probably cause I was so cute and cuddly and little that the only word left to call me is Squirt.

Mama: I remember she always used to call me "Peanut" which I'm assuming is once again cause I was so cute! ;)

Krista: She has and probably always will call me "Baby." I am far from a literal baby, but being the baby of the family puts that on you for all time.

Karly: I'm sure growing up she did not call me nice nicknames. Maybe I've blocked them from my memory. HA! It doesn't look like it now, but once upon a time Kar and I did NOT get along. We were kinda brutle to each other. But once Kris went on her mission we seemed to bond and we were attached ever since. So then she called me and still does call me, "Princess."

Friends in my Stake growing up: I got called "Kaycie Quillo" or just "Quillo" since my middle name is Quilhot. I'm pretty sure my friend, Amber Lanier, started it and everyone liked it. I also got the name "Tinky Winky" from my Stake friends. Well, maybe I peed my pants 3 years in a row at Girl's Camp. You would think maybe 12, 13, & 14? Nope! 15, 16, & 17. I'm just that awesome.

Adam: Adam and I were besties when I was growing up. He was 3 years older than me, but we were still way tight and always hung out at Stake activities and then some. I'm not sure where this started either, but he has and I'm pretty sure always will call me "Shorty."

Sometime in high school my best friends, Katie & Brittany, started calling me "Kayc Face." I think that is actually the nickname that has lasted the longest. People from all different friend circles call me that. I like it.

Ashley Kay: I'm not sure why or how it started, but she always calls me "Sweet Kaycie." But no one can say it like she does. I know this is so cheesy, but it is so comforting inside when she says it. Sometimes it's when we're being funny and sometimes when we're just hanging, but either way, it's great.

And lastly, everyone that is close with me calls me "Kayc." I LOVE IT! I seriously love when people say "Kayc." It means we're friends. It means you feel comfortable enough to call me that. However, I am particular. If I don't like you, don't call me that! I know that seems ridiculous, but it bugs me when people think we're tight, when in reality, we're not really. Ha. So unless you get a death glare from me, you can call me Kayc! :)

Day 20-Someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future.

I see myself being with this good lookin' fella!

I love this Foster guy of mine. He is the best guy in the entire world. I truly have been blessed to have him in my life. I know he went to Georgia/SC on his mission to bless the lives of those that maybe no other Elder could, but I also like to believe he got sent there so we could meet and ultimately end up together. The Lord truly has a plan and if we're righteous we can obtain all the awesome things he has in store. Like Alex and I meeting for instance! Alex is so good to me and strives every single day to be better. Everyone loves him. Seriously...everyone! He brings life to anything and once you get him talking, watch out! :) I love when people first meet him and say he's quiet. HA....right...you don't even know. He always has a story for everything and will make you laugh! He brings so much joy to my life and I couldn't ask for anything better. Not to mention I just wanna kiss his face off! ;)

Day 17 & 18!

Day 17-Someone I would want to switch lives with for one day and why?

Hmm...this is interesting. Do I wanna know what it's like to be a boy? Do I wanna know what it's like to be a different race? Do I wanna know what it's like to be in a different country? So many options! There are billions of people in this world! For looks wise I would go with Carrie Underwood or Nicole Scherzinger. Cause let's be honest...they're smokin'.

However, if I had one day as anybody it would be one of Bill Gates' children. Not so I can meet Bill Gates, cause I'm not too interested in that. He's cool, but whatevs...I just want his wallet for one day! I just want to know what it's like to be so rich that you don't know what to do with the money. Not that I'm a gold digger or anything, but some days it would be so nice to just buy whatever I wanted and not think twice about it. Does that sound shallow? Probably. I should be thinking more about giving it to starving families or building schools in Africa. Well ok...I'd do that too. I'd donate a hefty amount to charities and then I'd go shopping to celebrate the cheer. I want to know what it feels like to buy a $1,000 bag and shoes that are ridiculously expensive. Well, it's true. I would want that. But the thing is...I don't want it for more than one day. Once is enough. I think being THAT rich would get old. Maybe I'm wrong? I dunno...cause I've never been that loaded. But I'm pretty content with my poor, college student life. It's fun, it's exciting, it's stressful, it's youthful, it's me. One day would be enough, and then I'll go back to my $35 jacket from Target.

Day 18-Plans/Dreams/Goals you have.

Wow, this is tough. I've wanted for quite some time to create a Bucket List of things I want to do before I die. I just haven't gotten to it yet, but I will. So for now here are some of these Plans.Dreams.Goals that I have:

-Get Married to this boy I'm sorta in love with. (And by sorta I mean, holy wow I am.)

-Have cute little babies that will think I'm the best mother in the world.

-Teach dance because dancing brings happiness to everyone.

-Be a leader in the church in whatever capacity is required of myself.

-Always be in love with that boy I'm sorta in love with and never let that love go stale.

-Be a friend to those who need it.

-Never stop developing my talents.

-Go to Italy, Spain, New Zealand, Jerusalem, Africa, and India.

-Learn how to sew.

-Milk a cow.

-Go volunteer somewhere cool and spread my love all over this world.

-Never lose sight of what is most important.

These are just some...

ipod shuffle and a pic of me-self...yes.

Can I just say I'm loving this 30 day thing?! I get so excited every time I'm on here to just see what is in store for this day. And today I am very excited because I get to do the iPod shuffle. That sounded like a dance...the iPod shuffle. Move aside Electric Slide, here comes the new swagger in town: the iPod shuffle. I think I'll create it and then put it on YouTube and make millions because everyone will be dancing like myself. Brilliant plan! And I have digresed from why I am on here. Ok...the next day is to put my iPod on shuffle and put the first 10 songs on that come. Here goes.

Numero uno: "Whatever You Like" by Nicole Scherzinger Feat: T.I. I'm pretty sure she's the most gorgeous woman on this planet.

Numero dos: "Leaving On A Jet Plane" by Chantal Kreviazuk. I like it better than the John Denver version. Sorry.

Numero tres: "Written All Over My Face" by Kris Allen. His voice is like butter.

Numero cuatro: "Who I Am" by David Archuleta. I'm on an American Idol roll it seems...

Numero cinco: "The Lazy Song" by Bruno Mars. I appreciate the slight reggae feel.

Numero seis: "You're Not Sorry" by Taylor Swift. Oh Tay...how I love you.

Numero siete: "Say You're Sorry" by Sara Bareilles. HA! That's hilarious due to the previous song. (side note...seeing Sara in TWO days!!!)

Numero ocho: "Let the Rain" by Sara Bareilles. Can't wait!

Numero nueve: "Candle in the Wind" by Elton John. Boyfriend sure loves him so I've grown to love him more than I used to.

Numero diez: "Bad Romance" by Lady GaGa. I know she's a freak, but I think she's fantastic.

Next day: Another picture of me. I shall use this time to gloat about my sister, Krista. She is FANTASTIC! Seriously...such a talented photographer. She took our roommate pics last week and snapped some individuals of us. So here is one of mine. Want to look in her gallery or book her? Go here. You won't regret it.

and alas....I'm behind again!

Day 12-How you found out about blogger and why you have one

If any of you know my sister, Krista, you know she's an amazing writer...and well, just an amazing person in general. There's nothing she can't do. Ok..well maybe I can dance better than her. ;) But besides that she kills me at it all. She's had a blog for quite some time now and I would read it every once in awhile. I hadn't really gotten in the whole blog phase yet and she'd always get upset I didn't read it every day. Haha...so I started to and it actually looked fun. Then I started discovering other friend's blogs and then once I saw that my friend, McKell, had one I caved in and got one in May of 2009. And it's been fab! I love it! Thanks Kris & Kell!

Day 13-A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

This might be a little personal, but, my future mother in law has hurt me. She has never been too keen on the idea of Alex and me dating, even though we've been together for 10 months now and it's obvious we're not planning on breaking up. Alex hasn't talked to her recently about it, but I pray every day that her heart will soften. I spent time with his grandparents and aunts and cousins yesterday and it was so fun! They were all so sweet and loved me, so hopefully they'll tell his mother how awesome I am? Haha...I actually am writing her an email to try and get to know her better and hopefully rectify whatever I can. I'll keep that to myself though as this blog is for the world to see (even though only friends and family look) and send it with only Alex knowing its contents. Wish us luck! Every other person loves us together! :) (I do too...course I might be a tad bias. ;)

Day 14-A picture of you and your family

This is Karly and J.J.'s wedding in July 2009 at the Columbia Temple!

Is it sad that this is the most recent pic of the 6 of us (and with grandma Q haha)?

But we shall all be AZ for the arrival of my niece, Laela, and we should definitely get some photos then! Especially since we will have a little one! Ah, can't wait to be with my family!

Days 10 & 11

Day 10: Songs I listen to when I'm bored, happy, sad, mad, hyped.

Bored: I usually turn to John Mayer just because he makes me un-bored. (is that even a word?) Anywho, John is an amazing musician and is from Georgia and who doesn't love a Southern boy?! I usually skip straight to either this song, this song, or this song, but they're all stellar.

Happy: When I'm happy I want something that is just content and for me right now I'm obsessed with this song by Mindy Gledhill and this song by Ingrid Michaelson.

Sad: When I'm sad it's usually because I get down on myself about my experience with a certain boy. Not because I blame myself for what happened and not because I'm still in love with him, but more because I remember the pain and it hurts. Still. The songs I listened to the most during that time was this song by Sara Bareilles and this song by A Fine Frenzy.

Mad: When I'm mad I want Kelly Clarkson! She always has the best boy bash songs! And even though me being mad is not always because of boys, she still helps. This one and this one, especially.

Hyped: I want something to dance to cause that is ALL i wanna do when I'm hyped up! Thisworks, this works, and this works! All fabulous choices!

Day 11: Another picture of me and my friends.

Well since I just took roommate pics this is perfect timing! My roomies are babes I know!

a little behind...Days 7, 8, & 9

Day 7-A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Wow, this one is SO hard! To pick just ONE someone/something. There have been so many! I could go on and on about parents, sisters, family, friends, EFY teachers, church leaders, school teachers, religion professors, etc. However, the person that sticks out in my mind is our former prophet President Gordon Bittner Hinckley. Geez...what a stud! I love this man with all of my heart. Don't get me wrong, I love our other General Authorities, but this man sure pulls on my heart strings. He was the prophet from the time I was 8 until I was almost 21. A lot happens between those ages, especially those years that shape you and make you into the person you will most likely be for the rest of your life. He taught me how to treat my eternal companion, he taught me how to hold on fast to my testimony of the Restoration and Joseph Smith, he taught me how to stand for something, he taught me how to stand a little taller each and every day, & most importantly, he taught me how to better love my Savior and Heavenly Father. This man is amazing and oh how I miss him! Even though he has been dead for almost 3 years, it is still weird to not see him at General Conference. He must've been amazing if my boyfriend (who can count the amount of times he's cried) cried during his broadcasted funeral. (He's gonna kill me for putting that on here. Love you :) President Hinckley was and still is the man.

Day 8-Short term goals for this month and when you'll accomplish them

My short term goals for the month of November are:

1. Catch up on my journal writing

2. Lose 5 pounds

3. Be more grateful

4. Learn a new piano piece

5. Find adult dance classes that I can attend

I want to accomplish all of those goals by Thanksgiving. TOTALLY do-able!

Day 9-Something you're proud of in the past few days

One of the girls at New Haven has been wearing some sort of hoodie with her hood up over her head, constantly, for the last 3 months when she arrived. At first it was a protection to shut out everyone since she did not want to be there, but then it became an OCD tendency. She has OCD super bad. It takes her like an hour to wash her face...kinda ridiculous. It's hard to understand since I don't have OCD, but apparently it's really difficult for her to deal with. So I have never seen the top of her head...until 2 days ago!! She took it off!! This past weekend was Parent Weekend and I'm not sure what happened while her dad was there, but when I arrived on Saturday she had taken it off! She was so pretty! It was kinda weird though since I was so used to seeing her hood. You could tell she was having a rough time, but hopefully when I go in tomorrow she will still have it down. So even though she's a pill sometimes, I'm so proud of her.

Day 5 & 6

Yes I know....I tend to do multiple days in one post, but it just gets hard to remember every day. However, Day 5 is a place I have been and Day 6 is my favorite superhero and why.

I really haven't been THAT many places...I've never been outside of the country and compared to a lot of people haven't even seen that much that the USA has to offer. However, I am proud of my recent excursion to San Francisco, CA. I was only there for 12 hours for the Braves game, but I loved it for those 12 hours! I want to go back so badly! I want to experience everything, since all I got to enjoy was the bridge and AT&T Park.

Mr. Incredible is my favorite superhero. Rather...the whole Incredibles clan are my favs. How could they not be? They have cool powers, they're friends with Frozone, they pass on their powers through their genes, and Edna is their stylist. Need I say more?!

Day 4...

Day 4: A Habit I wish I didn't have.

Hmm...this has taken much thought because I don't have those "normal" habits like biting my nails (ick), twirling my hair, grinding my teeth (ouch), interrupting, etc...

So the habit I could do without would be to not be so hard on myself all the time. It's sad, but true that I am constantly thinking down on myself. It's always: "I need to lose weight," "I should have studied more for that exam," "I should not have lost patience at work," and on and on and on...Now I don't by any means think I am a terrible/ugly/awful person, but when you live in Provo (and just in this world in general) it's hard not to compare yourself to everyone around you.

At our regional Stake Conference in September we had Elder Holland, Sister Beck, & President Packer come speak to us. (Awesome, I know!) But in Sister Beck's talk she said, "You're doing better than you think you are." However, she also tagged it with, "But...there is always more you can do." So I need to remember all that I have done that is good like how I have had many good days at work where patience was not lost and that for being at BYU I have kept my grades up even with having multiple jobs, multiple dance teams, and the hardest experience of my entire life. So instead of being down on myself about those things I need to remember the good and then try to do more, as Sister Beck advises, in other aspects. Like serving others more, better studying my scriptures, giving meaningful prayers, spending time with loved ones, etc...

So all in all the habit I wish I did not have would be: being so hard on myself. I will continue to try harder and harder to stop...:)